caution: alot of elipsisees

so here is a little bit of me... being... well... i dunno kinda eh... i guess is the best way to put it...

so i am feeling eh... kinda like questioning who i am... what am i doing... and why. it is probably the weather and the hour... it is 12:02 by my clock... i just cant seem to concentrate on the here and now... like the day-dreams i have before bed are more real to me than my life... and my temper had been more on edge lately... like i get mad at the littlest things... and i know that is most deffinately the weather... the rain is never ending... i have no motivaation to do anything other than sit and watch tv and eat...

i am just sick of me... of who i am... i feel like there is something missing... like a lost opertunity... if there are infinate possibilities and therefore infinate universes, who am i in them... in this one? i feel like i am not me... like i am floating around watching this person with my body doing things as i watch on... like i am just going through the motions, and nothing changes or impresses me... the world is grey and so am i...

i find myself drifting off more than usual... not to day dream, just to stare off... like there are elipsesees in my daily life... sigh well i must go... let me know your thoughts....